I’m a smoker. I have been since the age of 14. I’m not proud of it, but I’m not ashamed either.
Many people seem to look down on you when you say that you smoke. If you are a considerate smoker, i.e. never smoking around non smokers, I don’t see why you should feel ashamed. It isn’t like I am saying I’m a heroin addict (which I’m not before you ask).
Over the years I have thought about quitting, but until now that is all I have done about it. Think.
The trouble is, I love smoking. I bloody love it. It calms me down when I’m stressed, it’s enjoyable with a drink of something alcoholic or after a meal.
Obviously I am aware of the health issue. It has always been at the back of my mind but unfortunately that competes with the side of me that doesn’t like being told what to do and it someone says I shouldn’t do something, I more than probably will.
Over the New Year however I was away with friends, none of whom smoked and as such, the amount of cigarettes I smoked went down. No one likes standing out in the cold for a cigarette and particularly not when you are on your own.
I am usually a 20 a day person. Over the New Year I went down to about 14, which given the amount of alcohol consumed over that period is amazing. It started me wondering when I returned home if it was something I could keep up. So I decided to give it a go.
The end plan of course is to eventually quit. Health issues aren’t going to scare me out of smoking but the fact that I could have a lot more money at my disposal is more than tempting. At this points “shoes” runs through my brain.
So for now, my little challenge is to maintain the 14 a day I started with at New Year. Then once I have a handle on that, well, we will see how we go from there. Baby steps, not a marathon is more likely to work with me.
The end goal, stop smoking (without a goal date though as I don’t like to be pushed). Present goal, maintain what I’m doing for a month and then review. If I manage to quit completely, my aim is to use a few months’ worth of the saved money for a pair of Louboutins. Now that is something to aim for as I am after all at heart a shoe girl.
I’ll let you know how I go on.