22 July 2014

A Little Update

I want to do a little update post today.
I haven’t been myself for the past four months or so.  It has shown in my daily life, my work; my blog and in my general temperament.  I felt like I was on a downward spiral of sadness that I couldn’t seem to break.  Tears would come from nowhere, all the time and the blues were firmly in residence.
I have always used this blog as a means of sorting through my feelings and it has always helped in the past; but my love for blogging disappeared and the writing just didn’t help.  I decided that I wanted to look into counselling, something that I have wanted to do for years but not plucked up the courage to try.
The thing is, the very last thing I wanted to do was go to my GP.  Having been told once before “lose weight and you’ll be happier” I knew that I would either get the same response again or alternatively offered anti-depressants which I didn’t want.
What I was happy to find out however is that you don’t need to be referred by your GP for counselling.  You don’t need to involve them at all.  I went along to my local Women’s Centre and am now in the middle of my NHS funded eight sessions (I think that this can be extended to twelve if needed).

If you are looking for a non judgemental environment that can offer the services that you need, I highly recommend that you check out your local alternatives.
My session last week was a real break through moment for me but it isn’t until today that I have noticed any change in how I have been feeling.  Today though, the happiness has returned.  I feel invigorated and excited to see what is ahead of me.  The smile that has been missing so much lately is back and I don’t need to put up a happy fa├žade.
I had forgotten just how happy that I was prior to my downward period and to feel like that again makes me want to dance around the room to Pharell Williams' "Happy".
So top tips of the day:
  • You don’t need to go to your GP for help, there are other ways.
  • Skeletons in your closet take up too much room and need letting out.
  • There is always light at the end of the tunnel, even if some days it is just a tiny dot, it is always there.

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  1. I am glad you are feeling better lovely. If you need to talk, i m here.x

  2. Oh Vicky. Depression is an unpredictable and irrational beast. I'm glad things are looking up xx

  3. I love this post. I didn't love it to begin with, but as I read through to the end of the post your lifted mood really shone through with your writing. I'm so glad you're feeling brighter and I hope things continue to improve. Sending lots of love xox

  4. I'm so sorry to hear you've been feeling low for a while now, but I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a little happier now. Your doctor should be ashamed of himself for just telling you to just lose weight; when will they realise it's not a solution that magically solves all health issues?? Depression is awful and I'm so happy to hear you've been able to find something that's helping you get your happiness back. Big hugs! xx

  5. Oh hugs honey bun. I hope the counselling helps immensely and know if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here for you. x x x


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